Still ill

[j4]

I came off the Pill on Thursday. I'm now shaky, nauseous, and uncontrollably weepy (and my period won't stop). Every time I think it can't possibly get any worse while I'm putting so much effort into trying to make it better, it does. And after 10+ years of fighting depression I'm really tired of being shouted at for not being optimistic enough about getting better or finding a cure.

And yes, I cried, I'm sorry, I cried because I'm in pain and I'm frightened and I am worn down to scratchy backing-material and bent tacks from gritting my teeth and trying not to feel the wrong thing.

I feel like my life is just one big flat I'm-sorry-I'm-sorry-I'm-sorry with nowhere left to hide.

Comments

[taimatsu]

I'm free at the moment - would a visit help? ('No' is a perfectly fine response which does not require explanation or apology.)

[j4.livejournal.com]

I don't know. Probably not. :-(

[taimatsu]

Okay. I'll be thinking of you. Am also at your service should there be anything you *do* want of me (though I know such offers are generally not very helpful).

Lots of love.