Still ill

Well that wiped out most of today. :-(

Was feeling too ill and tired to do anything, went to lie down for a bit, and got progressively more shattered and achey and generally useless. Ended up spending several hours mostly-asleep, with head feeling like it was made of lead, legs feeling like they were made of jelly, stomach gurgling nauseously and back aching dully in the background all the time. And ended up with headache and neckache from sleeping in awkward positions.

Suspect I may not be doing karate grading tomorrow after all.

Did have some very weird dreams though while dozing... ( more dream nonsense )

Still feel headachey and shattered, though a little better for sleeping (and eating). We'll see how I feel tomorrow morning at 6am (which is when I need to get up if I'm going to make it to the grading). Blehh.

Update: Felt like death at 6 a.m. Slightly better now (headache sufficiently dulled that I can move my head without too much pain) but still generally grotty, & there was no way I could have done justice to myself in a grading (and I'm not sure I could have sat through the three-hour car journey to get there, either). Hoping I'll feel well enough to stagger over to see lnr and ewx this afternoon, unless of course they'd rather I kept my icky germs to myself!

Just feel miserable and useless at the moment though. I've been putting off grading for so long because I didn't feel ready, and now when I did feel about as ready as I was ever going to, I go and get ill. Can't help wondering if it's all in the mind and I'm actually just too crap to ever pass any more gradings. Or indeed do anything with my life at all. :-(