Agh! I typed a comment and it was too long, and it said "Go back and shorten it" and I did and it had gone. :-( Will try again:
You have a degree in Eng Lit? One option (that you will probably shout at me for suggesting) is to teach.
No shouting, I have considered teaching, & am still sort of considering it, but I'm worried about trying to help other people learn when I don't seem to be able to learn anything myself any more. And yes there are train-while-you-work options but they're still not terribly well-paid (13K is about the maximum possible AFAICT) and they'd be utterly, totally exhausting.
No degree is *useless* - if nothing else it's proof that you're bright enough to get through college....
Not convinced. I mean, everybody has a degree now in TonyLand...
Make a list of what you'd like to do, and then see if you can figure a way to worm yourself into something like that?
The problem is, there's lots of things I sort-of-wouldn't-mind doing, but none of them that I'm passionate about; and I think I'd need to be passionate (or at least passionater than I am) about something to get up enough motivation to change type-of-job completely. I can't think of anything that I really really want to do apart from being a mummy-badger. :-( And that's not a Career Choice for the Modern Woman, see.
Eep! The thought of having that much responsibility scares me silly. I can just about cope with kittens.
I don't mind the responsibility; I like having responsibility when it's for things that I want to do & that I think are worthwhile & important.
Not having babies right now is probably a good idea, because you should try to get the rest of the world a bit more stable first.
Oh, definitely. Finances are not up to baby-bringing-up at the moment, and relationships aren't in a state where adding babies would be workable. [Disclaimer: I don't think people have to be in a relationship to have babies! Much less any specific type of relationship! But I'm already in relationships and babies would impact on them and I don't think it'd be helpful at the moment.]
But would something like working with babies or children be better for your soul? (or maybe it would be worse - I don't know)
I think it'd be worse; I think it'd just make me miserable about not being able to have kids of my own. And besides, I don't have any kind of childcare qualification, so I wouldn't be able to do it anyway. (It's funny, nobody makes people get qualifications for looking after their own kids...)
You know that you're welcome to come down here for a break if you want to, as well, don't you?
I do, and thank you for the offer; I might take you up on it at some point, but as you know getting to London is quite stressy (and costly). ARGH MONEY STRESS, etc.
Something's got to be improvable, even if it's tiny things.
I do try to improve tiny things, but it doesn't seem to make much difference, & I don't seem to have much energy for improving little things when I'm spending all my time stressing about the BIG HAIRY THINGS. Sigh. I dunno. I do feel like I'm being terribly useless at the moment, & I'm trying not to be, but I don't seem to be getting very far. :-( Sorry.
further purring from the lazy lump of fur on my feet.
That's no way to talk about the Sheep! :-P
Thank you for hugs and purring and sensible advice and stuff though. *hugs* It does help.
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Date: 2003-08-13 06:57 am (UTC)You have a degree in Eng Lit? One option (that you will probably shout at me for suggesting) is to teach.
No shouting, I have considered teaching, & am still sort of considering it, but I'm worried about trying to help other people learn when I don't seem to be able to learn anything myself any more. And yes there are train-while-you-work options but they're still not terribly well-paid (13K is about the maximum possible AFAICT) and they'd be utterly, totally exhausting.
No degree is *useless* - if nothing else it's proof that you're bright enough to get through college....
Not convinced. I mean, everybody has a degree now in TonyLand...
Make a list of what you'd like to do, and then see if you can figure a way to worm yourself into something like that?
The problem is, there's lots of things I sort-of-wouldn't-mind doing, but none of them that I'm passionate about; and I think I'd need to be passionate (or at least passionater than I am) about something to get up enough motivation to change type-of-job completely. I can't think of anything that I really really want to do apart from being a mummy-badger. :-( And that's not a Career Choice for the Modern Woman, see.
Eep! The thought of having that much responsibility scares me silly. I can just about cope with kittens.
I don't mind the responsibility; I like having responsibility when it's for things that I want to do & that I think are worthwhile & important.
Not having babies right now is probably a good idea, because you should try to get the rest of the world a bit more stable first.
Oh, definitely. Finances are not up to baby-bringing-up at the moment, and relationships aren't in a state where adding babies would be workable. [Disclaimer: I don't think people have to be in a relationship to have babies! Much less any specific type of relationship! But I'm already in relationships and babies would impact on them and I don't think it'd be helpful at the moment.]
But would something like working with babies or children be better for your soul? (or maybe it would be worse - I don't know)
I think it'd be worse; I think it'd just make me miserable about not being able to have kids of my own. And besides, I don't have any kind of childcare qualification, so I wouldn't be able to do it anyway. (It's funny, nobody makes people get qualifications for looking after their own kids...)
You know that you're welcome to come down here for a break if you want to, as well, don't you?
I do, and thank you for the offer; I might take you up on it at some point, but as you know getting to London is quite stressy (and costly). ARGH MONEY STRESS, etc.
Something's got to be improvable, even if it's tiny things.
I do try to improve tiny things, but it doesn't seem to make much difference, & I don't seem to have much energy for improving little things when I'm spending all my time stressing about the BIG HAIRY THINGS. Sigh. I dunno. I do feel like I'm being terribly useless at the moment, & I'm trying not to be, but I don't seem to be getting very far. :-( Sorry.
further purring from the lazy lump of fur on my feet.
That's no way to talk about the Sheep! :-P
Thank you for hugs and purring and sensible advice and stuff though. *hugs* It does help.