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Feb. 8th, 2004 09:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
j4I've had quite a productive week, really. I took my bike in for fixing, took ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
pto452 in for some more serious fixing, did a lot of washing, tidied up a bit, did my usual shifts at the Carlton, went to my usual orchestra rehearsal, ditto karate class, paid in some money, did a modelling session for a photographer (and got paid for it!), read some books I hadn't read before, practised piano and recorder (not at the same time) a bit, bought and helped to assemble a bookcase, reorganised the library, scanned in some images I'd been meaning to scan for ages (so I now have some new LJ icons), and bought a car (a K-reg Renault 5).
I also spent a lot of time withhoiho, who came down to visit for a few days. He's taken the job in High Wycombe, by the way.
And I'm starting my Shiny New Job tomorrow.
So why do I feel so utterly blank and hopeless?
pto452 in for some more serious fixing, did a lot of washing, tidied up a bit, did my usual shifts at the Carlton, went to my usual orchestra rehearsal, ditto karate class, paid in some money, did a modelling session for a photographer (and got paid for it!), read some books I hadn't read before, practised piano and recorder (not at the same time) a bit, bought and helped to assemble a bookcase, reorganised the library, scanned in some images I'd been meaning to scan for ages (so I now have some new LJ icons), and bought a car (a K-reg Renault 5).I also spent a lot of time with
hoiho, who came down to visit for a few days. He's taken the job in High Wycombe, by the way.And I'm starting my Shiny New Job tomorrow.
So why do I feel so utterly blank and hopeless?
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Date: 2004-02-09 03:57 am (UTC)The B-&-H feeling *might* well be a habit, that's an interesting thought. But your feelings are just that: feelings, inside you: they aren't independent entities which can exist outside of you on their own. They are yours: nobody else has any choice about your feelings nor about what you decide to do about them (such as ignoring them because you know they will change in due course anyway). Moreover, you have clearly made choices - excellent ones, IMHO - about your actions over the last week. You are not letting yourself be the victim of your own feelings, you're getting on with life: quite right, too. You are the mistress of your internal house: hurray for you!