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Feb. 8th, 2004 09:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
j4I've had quite a productive week, really. I took my bike in for fixing, took ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
pto452 in for some more serious fixing, did a lot of washing, tidied up a bit, did my usual shifts at the Carlton, went to my usual orchestra rehearsal, ditto karate class, paid in some money, did a modelling session for a photographer (and got paid for it!), read some books I hadn't read before, practised piano and recorder (not at the same time) a bit, bought and helped to assemble a bookcase, reorganised the library, scanned in some images I'd been meaning to scan for ages (so I now have some new LJ icons), and bought a car (a K-reg Renault 5).
I also spent a lot of time withhoiho, who came down to visit for a few days. He's taken the job in High Wycombe, by the way.
And I'm starting my Shiny New Job tomorrow.
So why do I feel so utterly blank and hopeless?
pto452 in for some more serious fixing, did a lot of washing, tidied up a bit, did my usual shifts at the Carlton, went to my usual orchestra rehearsal, ditto karate class, paid in some money, did a modelling session for a photographer (and got paid for it!), read some books I hadn't read before, practised piano and recorder (not at the same time) a bit, bought and helped to assemble a bookcase, reorganised the library, scanned in some images I'd been meaning to scan for ages (so I now have some new LJ icons), and bought a car (a K-reg Renault 5).I also spent a lot of time with
hoiho, who came down to visit for a few days. He's taken the job in High Wycombe, by the way.And I'm starting my Shiny New Job tomorrow.
So why do I feel so utterly blank and hopeless?
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Date: 2004-02-09 04:02 am (UTC)It could be an adjustment thing. Once your brain gets into a pattern of "everything's hopeless, life sucks, it's never going to change", it takes a while to get out of that mindset even when things have changed. Something in the subconcious isn't quite convinced, and refuses to cheer up because it doesn't want to be let down if everything goes wrong again.
Add to that any scaryness about the new job, and it's quite understandable that you're not quite on top of the world. Given time though, it should sink in that things are going to stay good, and by then work will have stopped being scary, and you'll actually get to enjoy it.