A lemming entry

[j4]

Ask me a question that you think I will be reluctant to answer.

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[(Anonymous)]

Why don't you, ah, get much relief that way?

[j4.livejournal.com]

The short answer: I can't get much relief "that way" without the use of additional implements because my fingers are too bloody short. :)

The longer answer: a lot of the things that really do it for me just don't work as solo projects. It's difficult to tease yourself, even more difficult to play mind-games with yourself. It's ... things that are about dynamics between people, so you can't really recreate it between one person. (There is no "between" with just one person!) And the, the, [hunts for words] ... the shape of the way I get turned on is complicated, and generally I really just don't have time/energy to work through all of those levels, so I usually end up still feeling frustrated.

I've only just realised that a lot of that boils down to "I'm too lazy". :) It's like cooking, really; if I'm cooking for/with somebody else, I'll put the effort into making a decent meal, maybe even with multiple courses. If I'm cooking for myself it's takeout pizza or microwave meals for one. Stops you starving, but it doesn't make you feel sated. Maybe I should make more effort for myself. But really I'd rather have the company.