Odd. Most odd.
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j4I phoned up to tell the NHS that I wasn't going to attend the interview for that job I was dithering about ... and then told them that I would be attending. I just changed my mind somewhere between dialing the number and actually getting to the reason for my call.
I think it's partly that Cogwheel have finally got round to finding me a counselling appointment that I can actually get to, and it's at lunchtime on the same day; so I think some part of my brain said "Might as well take the day as holiday and do both things". Actually, I was hoping to work at home instead, but Cynical Richard says he'd rather I didn't. Maybe he's getting wise to the fact that I'd just sit there livejournalling the whole time. :-/
Basically though I don't really know why I did it, and now I'm having second thoughts about it already, and I feel even more confused. I guess I could always ring them back a couple of days later and pretend I've been offered another job since then, so I won't be doing the interview...
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As regards the other poll, the one about my birthday... I'm really starting to tend towards the "don't do the seminar, have the party WHEN I GODDAMN WANT IT" side of the argument. The seminar is expensive and given the way I'm feeling at the moment I don't know if I'd get that much out of it. I think in a way I'd rather just have a long weekend with a bloody great party in the middle of it.
Still not totally decided yet though. God, why am I such a useless heap of indecision at the moment?
I think it's partly that Cogwheel have finally got round to finding me a counselling appointment that I can actually get to, and it's at lunchtime on the same day; so I think some part of my brain said "Might as well take the day as holiday and do both things". Actually, I was hoping to work at home instead, but Cynical Richard says he'd rather I didn't. Maybe he's getting wise to the fact that I'd just sit there livejournalling the whole time. :-/
Basically though I don't really know why I did it, and now I'm having second thoughts about it already, and I feel even more confused. I guess I could always ring them back a couple of days later and pretend I've been offered another job since then, so I won't be doing the interview...
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As regards the other poll, the one about my birthday... I'm really starting to tend towards the "don't do the seminar, have the party WHEN I GODDAMN WANT IT" side of the argument. The seminar is expensive and given the way I'm feeling at the moment I don't know if I'd get that much out of it. I think in a way I'd rather just have a long weekend with a bloody great party in the middle of it.
Still not totally decided yet though. God, why am I such a useless heap of indecision at the moment?
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Date: 2003-03-19 09:34 am (UTC)Still not totally decided yet though. God, why am I such a useless heap of indecision at the moment?
It's YOUR birthday, and YOUR party. You are entitled to be indecisive at this stage, since you have at least 3 weeks to decide yet. The essential thing is that you do what you want to do, and if you find yourself coming down on one particular side, go with it. But you can wait until you're sure before committing yourself, and no one would consider that uselessly indecisive. I personally wouldn't think it odd if you decided the seminar was something you really wanted to do and moved the party, it's not like it's something you can do every week either. OTOH if you changed the party date so you could go to the cinema I'd think that was a bit strange... :-)