There's too much confusion, I can't get no relief

[j4]

Karate lesson yesterday nearly turned into a philosophy lesson; I'm feeling increasingly detached from everything I do, and finding it hard to stay motivated, and I wanted to talk to sensei about this in the context of the karate. Unfortunately this got into a general discussion of how to maintain motivation in life, and I just wasn't in a fit state to deal with that. However the impending existential crisis was neatly averted by doing some work on the yellow belt geri wasa, and starting to learn the green belt one. I love the way the philosophy interacts with the physical; though I think on this occasion the physical work did me more good than the discussion would have done. Sensei commented at the end, though, that it's the same lesson whether we get there by talking or by kicking, punching, etc.; I'm starting to see what he means.

Slightly mopey evening in the pub afterwards; everybody seemed to be either too tired for much conversation (though I did have a nice chat with ewx) or too busy elsewhere to talk to me. Or perhaps it was just that, as usual, I was being loud, predictable, unfunny, and generally not somebody that anybody would want to talk to, despite what they may claim when they're trying to make me feel better.

Finding it hard to feel happy even though some good stuff is happening -- namely friends who were falling out horribly seem to have sorted out their differences and got their lives back in sync. I honestly am glad for them, it's just hard to change how I feel within myself.

Party alert:
Despite all this, sion_a and I seem to have agreed to host an Emergency Lack of Party Party tomorrow. You know the drill: our place, party o'clock.

Comments

[saraphale.livejournal.com]

I got asked to demonstrate mawashi geri on Monday - the first time I've done that kick in a long while (The instructor was making a point about how styles do things differently, but the movements are fundamentally similar). Wonder if I can still do yoko geri keage. Which one are you learning?

Might not make the party - If the work schedule for tomorrow holds true, I won't finish until 9pm.

[j4.livejournal.com]

Which one are you learning?

Which kick, which kata/wasa, or what? (Confused.)

The yellow belt geri wasa contains yoko geri, kin geri and ashiro geri. The green belt one has yoko geri, mae geri, mawashi geri, and one that I can't for the life of me remember what it's called, but it's basically a rising kick (intended to come up under the chin) with the heel. Nasty. :) I'll show you if you make it to the party... I'm not very good at any of it but you should be able to get an idea of what I'm talking about anyway.

BTW don't worry about turning up late to the party, there'll probably still be a party going on unless you're working ridiculously late -- but if you want my mobile so you can ring and check before turning up, email me and ask.

[saraphale.livejournal.com]

I'd assumed it was a new kick; I should have realised it was a combination. It has been a while :)

Hopefully I won't be working too late - there are voices of dissent in the office today at being ordered to come in for a 13 hour day, so I suspect there'll be a small revolt. Bwahahaha.