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[j4]

hopelessly adrift in the eyes of the ghost again / down on my knees and my hands in the air again / pushing my face in the memory of you again / but i never know if it's real / never know how i wanted to feel / never quite said what i wanted to say to you / never quite managed the words to explain to you / never quite knew how to make them believable / and now the time has gone / another time undone / hopelessly fighting the devil futility / feeling the monster climb deeper inside of me / feeling him gnawing my heart away hungrily / i'll never lose this pain / never dream of you again