Ill be back

[j4]

More notes from an ill badger -- not so much because I expect people to take an interest (being ill is boring. Fact.) as because I know how annoying it is to only hear half a story...

Whatever-it-is flared up badly over the weekend, and instead of spending the weekend doing exciting things like going to ultraruby's barbecue (sorry!) and going interesting places, I spent much of the weekend writhing about in pain/discomfort and alternating between feeling sorry for myself, feeling guilty about being useless, and feeling just plain pissed off at having to be ill on the only sunny August Bank Holiday EVER. I say "pain/discomfort" because if I had this level of pain in, say, my knee or something, I wouldn't really worry that much. What's pissing me off is the way it feels like someone's twisting my insides around all the time, and I can feel them shoogling around but they never quite get comfortable. It wears me out and it makes me not want to do anything. Eating toast and drinking Coke seemed to be the only thing that helped, and by Sunday night I was feeling well enough to invent words in Scrabble in an attempt to beat addedentry, and by Monday I was feeling well enough to go and clear out the shed (taking breaks to lie down on the lawn and try to straighten myself out again -- from there I could almost pretend I was having a holiday!). On Monday evening I managed to have a proper meal, so hurrah for being able to eat again.

My mum told me that she'd had something similar when she was my age, and they said it was IBS and gave her some magic high-fibre medicine drink, which she said tasted so foul that it just made her sick. So she decided that if it was just high-fibre she could do that with Real Food instead of icky medicine, and she did, and she says it got a bit better, but she still gets stomach problems whenever she's ill with anything else. Since food doesn't seem to make very much difference on the whole I'm happy to try eating higher-fibre stuff for a while; it's not as if it'll do any harm. Her latest suggestion is that I might have a hiatus hernia, which sounded pretty nasty but actually doesn't seem to be that drastic. The funny thing is, I had a dreadful cough back in March and thought I'd pulled a muscle from coughing, and now I'm wondering if what I actually did was give myself a hernia.

The web's great for hypochondria, isn't it?

Anyway, the hernia is something they can test for, so I'll suggest it next time I go back to the doctor. In the meantime, if the pain/discomfort stays at the level it's got down to today, I'm happy to wait the 2 months or so for the ultrasound rather than making a fuss and jumping the queue / demanding to be referred to specialists / whatever. If it gets worse again, I'll probably go back to the doctor, and see what the options are.

FWIW, my mum also said she'd've been on the Pill at the time when she was having the stomach problems. Not that it's by any means clear that that's anything to do with it. Anyway, I get to find out soon, hopefully as I'm very nearly at the end of this pack, & I'm stopping after that. I'm fairly worried about the effects that stopping the Pill might have, but honestly, I'd rather know what I'm like without the fake hormones, and then I can decide if I'd be better going back on them again. I'm not all pseudo-mystical about reclaiming my natural rhythms blah blah blah or anything like that; I really just want to do a proper experiment.

Oh, but I'm so bored of the whole 'ill' thing, though. And so are you, no doubt, so I will shut up now.

Comments

[mhw.livejournal.com]

Could well be a hiatus hernia from what you describe. If it is, don't worry too much, it's eminently treatable; my father had one some years back, and yes, his was flared up (though not caused) by a bad cough.

As to fibre drinks: one can buy a not too unpleasant one over here called Fybogel. It comes in sachets and you stir it into a glass of water and you end up with something like orange-flavoured wallpaper paste if you wait too long before drinking it :) Or you can just buy ispaghula husk (which is the active ingredient) and add it to food or drinks.

I;ve just phoned Dad (aren't I nice?) and he's reminded me that one thing he found useful to calm the spasms down while he was waiting to be seen was just to drink a glass of hot water. Not so hot that you burn your mouth, but noticeably on the hot side of warm. If you don't like plain water you could use a tisane or ordinary tea.

Anyway, good luck and I hope it turns out to be something very dull and quickly treatable!

[j4.livejournal.com]

Fybogel, that's the one my mum had! Thanks for the suggestion but it really sounded quite icky from her description, & to be honest I'd much rather just eat nice food that has plenty of fibre in. Nuts! Beans and pulses! Fruit! Jacket potato skins! ... It's like a licence to eat snacky food ALL THE TIME! :-)

Re hot drinks, I've been going for the peppermint tea (on various people's advice, and because it tastes nice!) and that sometimes seems to help a bit... Forgot to bring it into work today, annoyingly. :-/ Thanks for reminding me and corroborating that advice though -- I will dig out some teas to take into work tomorrow.

[taimatsu]

Gosh, I must be very picky - I can't stand Fybogel! If you leave it for ages and ages and ages it actually does turn into a gel in the glass and flollops out of it when poured like a yellow alien slime blob from Neptune. I've considered putting the powder in yoghurt instead but never got round to it.

If taking isphagula husk, do drink copious liquids with it - the point is that it's absorbent and swells in water and iirc it can cause problems if you take it without the liquid.

[j4.livejournal.com]

Ah well, if you're picky, then so's my mum. :-) But it does sound quite grim! And if it's pseudo-fruit-flavoured it'll almost certainly have aspartame in, anyway, which means I won't touch it with the proverbial ten-foot pole. (Bleh.)