Still ill

[j4]

I came off the Pill on Thursday. I'm now shaky, nauseous, and uncontrollably weepy (and my period won't stop). Every time I think it can't possibly get any worse while I'm putting so much effort into trying to make it better, it does. And after 10+ years of fighting depression I'm really tired of being shouted at for not being optimistic enough about getting better or finding a cure.

And yes, I cried, I'm sorry, I cried because I'm in pain and I'm frightened and I am worn down to scratchy backing-material and bent tacks from gritting my teeth and trying not to feel the wrong thing.

I feel like my life is just one big flat I'm-sorry-I'm-sorry-I'm-sorry with nowhere left to hide.

Comments

[k425.livejournal.com]

When did your period start - before or after you stopped taking the Pill? The average non-Pill period is about 5 days, I think, so you may be at the tail end. What are you taking for the pain? If it's not helping, I've just discovered that you can buy paracetamol and dihydrocodeine over the counter at Boots (even stronger than paracetamol and codeine) and it made a difference to my period-affected weekend!

[j4.livejournal.com]

I stopped my Pill at the end of the last packet. Thursday was the first day I would have started taking the next packet if I was carrying on with it.

I take Feminax occasionally when it seems that there's period pain on top of the stomach pains. Painkillers don't seem to help the stomach pains, though.