Yes, of course it's something you decide. But it's a complex decision at the best of times, there are always lots of factors to be considered when deciding, and at the moment it feels particularly difficult -- lots of conflicting desires, for a start.
I'm not expecting the answer to be handed to me on a plate, but the fact remains that at the moment I don't feel like I know what I'm doing. I feel like I'm poised between a lot of decisions, and I guess what I'm wishing is that I had a clearer sense of what the outcome(s) of my choice(s) would be; and possibly wishing that some of the possible choices could somehow be removed, but I know that would be abdicating responsibility for my own actions/choices/decisions, and I wouldn't want to do that even if I could. Possibly just wishing that I'd already made the choices that I'm currently worrying about, so they wouldn't be still to make.
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Date: 2003-07-15 03:17 am (UTC)Yes, of course it's something you decide. But it's a complex decision at the best of times, there are always lots of factors to be considered when deciding, and at the moment it feels particularly difficult -- lots of conflicting desires, for a start.
I'm not expecting the answer to be handed to me on a plate, but the fact remains that at the moment I don't feel like I know what I'm doing. I feel like I'm poised between a lot of decisions, and I guess what I'm wishing is that I had a clearer sense of what the outcome(s) of my choice(s) would be; and possibly wishing that some of the possible choices could somehow be removed, but I know that would be abdicating responsibility for my own actions/choices/decisions, and I wouldn't want to do that even if I could. Possibly just wishing that I'd already made the choices that I'm currently worrying about, so they wouldn't be still to make.
Does that make it clearer what I meant?